Silent Night. An all-time favorite Christmas carol. So simple yet so impactful. Well, I used to enjoy that song every year at Christmas. I would hear it sung at church countless times as well as when the carols at the stores would sing it. This Christmas is different though.
In October of 2007 my Grammy passed away. We were very very close. That Christmas was slightly difficult but looking back I do not think that I totally processed her not being there at Christmas. Our family had gone non-stop since her death. Having people come over bringing dinners. Visiting extended family for Thanksgiving. Finals coming up. It all happened so quickly. Hearing the song Silent Night that Christmas really did not affect me that much. However, this Christmas is different. Every time I hear that song, I think of my Grammy. It's harder this year. I hear the song and I remember her. It was her favorite Christmas song. I can still hear the faint sound of her voice singing it. 
I've gotten to the point to where I have asked many questions and even allowing myself to get angry. I ask the question 'why?' Then God showed me something. The night my Grammy passed away was in fact a silent night. At least in our hearts and minds. When she passed away, it began a long journey. A journey that will never end. However, the night she passed away, there was a place where it wasn't a silent night. Heaven. The angels in heaven were rejoicing and welcoming her home with open arms. Jesus was there at the gate to meet her.
So while we were here on Earth experiencing a silent night, Heaven was experiencing a joyous night. Sometimes things aren't always what we seem. God will make a way to comfort us even in the most tragic situations. So now when I hear that song, I don't think of a silent night. I think of a joyous night!
1 comment:
Oh Meggie, you of course brought tears to my eyes! Yes, there was rejoicing that night in heaven and you well know that she also was rejoicing. But as you said it was a "Silent Night" here. You are so right that this year it is harder-probably because it is really sinking in and because everything last year was a blurr. I was walking through Walmart and started crying when I heard the song. It will never be the same again but when we hear that song, we can be happy for her because that is where she wanted to be. Luv u MD
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